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I tried to forget
And move on
But you stayed in the back of my mind
Fiddling with my heart strings
And exploring my emotions
It's hard to focus
When that little voice always tells you what to do
The choices to choose
You just never go away
What a burden you are
But don't leave me
For you bring me comfort
Yet a painful memory as well
But although you torture me
And play me like a puppet
I still can't imagine life without such a tragedy
Such a mistake you were
But I shall carry you with me wherever I go
For the rest of my days
Forever and ever
What a burden you are
What a tragedy
What a mistake
What have you done to me
You terrible soul.
Above the hills
And beyond the sea
Past the abandoned windmills
That whisper to me.
There lies a secret
Only those who die can keep
Of a nightmare bullet
As scarring as the sea is deep.
The farther you go
The more you search
You will encounter a crow
A watchman on his perch.
Larger than most but smaller than few
With eyes of a sinner
Me, he looks right through
As nightfall rests on his feathers.
As the darkness of night
Transcends to early morning
He begins his dawn flight
All the while sending warning.
As I venture on through the muck and the fog
I proceed with caution
As my eyes rest on a figure beyond the bog
The memory my speech gets lost in.
As I approach the image grows clearer
A house of light
Grows ever nearer
I feel my heart speeding up and my throat become tight.
Sitting in the unforgiving December air
I lost my step- the house has taken it's freeze
Much like me, frost has stolen the life from the trees
The house and me, what a pair!
As my body grows heavy
What's the point in falling for someone who is clearly not ready to catch you?
I mean, I do understand that they hold their arms out for you to fall into
But are you really that gullible to trust them?
Don't get me wrong,
I've fallen for that trick several times
In fact, I'm just recovering from a fall
Well, at least I'm TRYING to recover
It seems to me that every single time I am on the road to recovery,
Someone or something gets in my way and distracts me
And that's the problem
I am so easily distracted
Distracted and gullible
But at times I also feel as though I am blind
I never look ahead and warn myself
I know what is going to happen to myself if I keep on trusting strangers so easily
My heart is going to end up broken
And my eyes will end up sore from all of the late night crying sessions
Sometimes I wish that I could just disappear
I wish that I could vanish
Go somewhere where there is complete silence
So there is nothing to hear
I could cry all I wanted to
And no one would ever know
I could scream in pain as loud as I would like
And there would be nothing anyone could do
Questioning my very own existence
Comparing my myself to others
And look out onto the distance
At times I feel depressed, sad and lonely
For no apparent reason
Like I have some form of hypophrenia
I should learn how to take life slow
And just go with the seasons
Why does it seem like my life is harder than everyone elses?
Why does God put me through this?
It seems kind of selfish
No one else besides me knows this
But when I look in the mirror, I feel disgusted
I can't help but see the one thing I lucked out on
And those simple times th
For Someone New
For Someone New~
Have you ever loved someone who could never be yours?
And no matter what you did he would just look right through you?
Story of my life
It always seems that no matter what I do
Or what I say
I'll never be good enough for him
I see him flirting with other girls
And I see him with his girlfriend
He's a completely different person when he's with them
He seems happy
I don't know if it's just me
But am I the only one that notices that sparkle in his eye?
I try so hard not to cry when I think about him
I literally have to hold back the tears between every class period
I hate knowing that I'll never get to hold your hand
I hate knowing that if I hugged you, you would push me away
And I absolutely despise the fact that you barely even notice me
Especially when I know every move that you make
Is it that hard?
That hard just to talk to me?
It really pains me to see you walk away when I'm speaking to you
I know I am not as pretty
Or as exciting as *her
But I was really hoping tha
Everything I Have Done
Everything I Have Done~
I had a terrible past
Everyday I would wake up
Wondering what the lastest drama on me was
I would always try to hide
You know, fade in the background?
Well that seemed nearly impossible
Every step i took
Someone was there ridiculing me
Only one person knows how ashamed I am of everything I have done
I can trust her with my life
I can trust her with my mistakes
I can trust her with my past
But mostly, I can trust knowing that she will never tell him the things I told her
She knows he made me cry
She knows he made me scream in pain
Because she witnessed all of that
She knows everything
I loved him so much
I would have done absolutely anything just to get him to notice me
But the problem was
I did exactley that
Anything and everything
If I had know before what kind of damage he would have caused me
I would not have even bothered to look twice at him
But that's where I'm lying
Of course I would have wasted my time on him
And of course I still would have l
The life you lead is unspoken
Write the words for the pages unwritten
You are the only one that can control what your future holds
Make the one who broke your heart beg to have you to come back
Don't hold a grudge
But let them know that their chances are fat
If your life was taken in snapshots
What would it look like?
Would you be proud of your past?
Or would you wish that you had taken your life to a whole new height?
Were you fearless?
Did you love even though you knew he would never be yours,
Or did you let the other monster have him,
While you got whatever was left
Make your presence memorable
And let your personality shine out luminously
Don't let others tell you what to do
And keep your promises as if you were sworn to secrecy
Raise your head high and keep it there proudly
Don't look down on others
Because when they are alone
They just might cry about it quietly
Who cares about your weight?
If someone judges you on that
Then they aren't worth your time anyway
So Did You
So Did You~
· "I'm sorry."
· That phrase has been abused and tossed around way too many times
· Not everybody realizes how valuable its meaning is
· Although it's only two words
· The story behind it is much greater than its size
· Some people just spit it out like its nothing
· But if you use it wrong
· It could take the victim months of healing
· I know you had no intention of hurting me
· You barely noticed we were drifting further apart
· And that left me drowning in the sea
· At times I forgot how to swim
· And it felt like the world stopped turning
· I have to learn how to get along without you
· And I have to find a way to stop hurting
· Every time I see you
· It brings back a flood of emotions
· I don't know whether to laugh or cry
· Or to go lie down and let time pass me by
· I can't count how many times I have wanted to run away and hide
· It's hard to find someone who wil
Middle Of Nowhere
Middle Of Nowhere~
· "Take my hand and close your eyes."
· I asked him where we were going
· But he said it was a surprise
· I could smell the salt of the ocean in the distance
· And ran my hand against a cherry wood tree
· I could feel the cool wind of the night
· And hear the gentle waves of the sea
· I tried to picture where we could be
· But nothing seemed familiar
· I had no idea where we were
· He held my hand to guide me safely
· Whispering in my ears
· Giving me directions and saying he loved me
· I felt myself blush
· And I giggled way too loudly
· Normally, that laugh would have been to quiet,
· But, wherever we were,
· The slightest whisper broke the silence
· He held me by the waist
· And brushed back my hair
· Kissed me gently
· And positioned me on a chair
· "Don't peek." He commanded me
· As impatient as I was
· I managed not to see
· I felt s
in timei need you
from my hands
and heart unto
the cold ground.
i am (forgetful)
i am (lost);
soon you might
s e e
that i will be
g o n e
you won't even
m i s s
and even then,
come visit me,
not even to
lay a rose on
DarknessI sit alone
In the darkness
Maddness eating my soul
Little demons scare me
They scurry around in the dark
No one would care
If I died
I will never know
I'm a grey bird
My colors dull
My song silent
If someone loves me
Say it now
Before the darkness kills me
Before I die
Anyone who did care
I'll see u when I fall asleep
Cause I won't be wakeing up
The world is exploding
Dirt flying and rocks hitting your skin
You run out of breath
Uneven and rocky you tumble and fall
The sounds of the dying scream into your ear
FIRE AT WILL
You force your mind shut and close your eyes
You think but you can't get a single thing out of your head
All you see and hear are the screams of the dying and the yelling of the fighting
You feel the ground hard an
Paint itPaint the world anew with your scarlet letters,
As the days pass and cities fill with feathers.
When the angels come a callin,
Paint the city before you go fallin.
Paint the rear view mirror,
To a scene that is somehow nearer.
Gone into the sun,
We'll make this scene fun,
As the battery dies and the mind dries,
You better go give up on lies.
Paint this life anew,
Scream it like you're due.
The caged voice breaks
With words that each sound ache,
Trembling with fear and worry's course.
Shatter all the walls with echoed force.
Paint it all,
Before we spin and fall.
The Elements Poems(Just My OCs)
A flame of a chance Lost inside, but future ahead
Everyday we live....we live risk Beginning life was amazing!
Risk that we must face for the greater good
A part of meWill I ever meet you again?
Will you ever be mine?
So many questions in my mind.
Will you ever be loved again,
Or your effort be rewarded someday?
Oh you deserve it, my prince.
The only thing I know for sure
Is I left my heart back with you.
the anticipation of
while for the hopeful
infantile hearts it
lifts their grief, briefly
through burdening and
bones with naïve love
searching high and low
to possess an elusive
ecstasy built strength
eases the bated breaths of
Sister Dearest.Every leaf falls down, and never takes it's place again
Everyday, the rain falls. And it only makes things even worse.
The wind becomes stronger, pushing you longer off.
Every hand falls, and needs another to push them up.
Every leaf needs wind to fly
Every raindrop needs water to fly.
I'm just as fragile as nothing, broken to the points of emptyness.
I always promised I'd never cry, I always told that I'd stay strong.
But I'm crying, I;m shattered to my knees.
A holding hand, it's the only thing I wished for.
And you were there, never going away.
You're permanent, as the flower of may.
Living hell everyday, seeing even less than happyness.
Watching everything turn to hell, and working your soul out.
Blocked in the darkness, looking into your eyes.
Sister, forgive my broken promise. And hold my hand
I've been broken to nothing, but I need you now.
You always told me "Brother be strong" A parade of happy ever after.
Yet, Look at me.
I'm lost and broken, confused and darkened.
You're Alone"You're alone," the voice whispers in my head;
it echoes during the day and through the night.
There is no escape from it
and I can no longer see the light.
"You're alone," the voice repeats itself.
"Yes, I know," I whimper back.
Overcome with fear and sadness;
my smile has been painted black.
"You're alone," it snarls at me,
laughing at my agonizing pain.
Now I'm lying on the battle ground,
by depression's hand I've been slain.
"You're alone!" the voice begins to scream.
"I know, I know!!!" I yell and finally break.
I cover my head with my hands and cry out,
"This is more than I can take!!!"
"You're alone!!!" it shrieks and laughs at me.
"Go away please," I say through tears,
"Don't you think I already know?"
By now I'm being pulled down by all my fears.
"You're alone," the voice turns to a whisper.
I finally open my tear filled eyes.
"I'm alone..." I say, knowing I've been talking to myself.
So I lay there crying, now believing what I once called lies.
· He saw me cry on the last day
· I bet he thought it was because everyone was going away
· But secretly inside myself I was yelling,
· "Don't do this to me!"
· "Don't leave."
· Every time I see him
· It's like the gigantic hole in my chest disappears
· But the second he turns around
· I wish he was now near
· The hole somehow finds its way back
· Through all of the tears
· There's a lump in my throat
· That I just can't seem to swallow
· I try to scream
· But my voice just sounds hollow
· It feels like there is acid
· All throughout my body
· Every payer I prayed was for you
· Every start I wished upon was about you
· And every tear I shed was because of you
· You were never forgotten
· Oh honey, you were never ONCE forgotten
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