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I tried to forget
And move on
But you stayed in the back of my mind
Fiddling with my heart strings
And exploring my emotions
It's hard to focus
When that little voice always tells you what to do
The choices to choose
You just never go away
What a burden you are
But don't leave me
For you bring me comfort
Yet a painful memory as well
But although you torture me
And play me like a puppet
I still can't imagine life without such a tragedy
Such a mistake you were
But I shall carry you with me wherever I go
For the rest of my days
Forever and ever
What a burden you are
What a tragedy
What a mistake
What have you done to me
You terrible soul.
Above the hills
And beyond the sea
Past the abandoned windmills
That whisper to me.
There lies a secret
Only those who die can keep
Of a nightmare bullet
As scarring as the sea is deep.
The farther you go
The more you search
You will encounter a crow
A watchman on his perch.
Larger than most but smaller than few
With eyes of a sinner
Me, he looks right through
As nightfall rests on his feathers.
As the darkness of night
Transcends to early morning
He begins his dawn flight
All the while sending warning.
As I venture on through the muck and the fog
I proceed with caution
As my eyes rest on a figure beyond the bog
The memory my speech gets lost in.
As I approach the image grows clearer
A house of light
Grows ever nearer
I feel my heart speeding up and my throat become tight.
Sitting in the unforgiving December air
I lost my step- the house has taken it's freeze
Much like me, frost has stolen the life from the trees
The house and me, what a pair!
As my body grows heavy
What's the point in falling for someone who is clearly not ready to catch you?
I mean, I do understand that they hold their arms out for you to fall into
But are you really that gullible to trust them?
Don't get me wrong,
I've fallen for that trick several times
In fact, I'm just recovering from a fall
Well, at least I'm TRYING to recover
It seems to me that every single time I am on the road to recovery,
Someone or something gets in my way and distracts me
And that's the problem
I am so easily distracted
Distracted and gullible
But at times I also feel as though I am blind
I never look ahead and warn myself
I know what is going to happen to myself if I keep on trusting strangers so easily
My heart is going to end up broken
And my eyes will end up sore from all of the late night crying sessions
Sometimes I wish that I could just disappear
I wish that I could vanish
Go somewhere where there is complete silence
So there is nothing to hear
I could cry all I wanted to
And no one would ever know
I could scream in pain as loud as I would like
And there would be nothing anyone could do
Questioning my very own existence
Comparing my myself to others
And look out onto the distance
At times I feel depressed, sad and lonely
For no apparent reason
Like I have some form of hypophrenia
I should learn how to take life slow
And just go with the seasons
Why does it seem like my life is harder than everyone elses?
Why does God put me through this?
It seems kind of selfish
No one else besides me knows this
But when I look in the mirror, I feel disgusted
I can't help but see the one thing I lucked out on
And those simple times th
For Someone New
For Someone New~
Have you ever loved someone who could never be yours?
And no matter what you did he would just look right through you?
Story of my life
It always seems that no matter what I do
Or what I say
I'll never be good enough for him
I see him flirting with other girls
And I see him with his girlfriend
He's a completely different person when he's with them
He seems happy
I don't know if it's just me
But am I the only one that notices that sparkle in his eye?
I try so hard not to cry when I think about him
I literally have to hold back the tears between every class period
I hate knowing that I'll never get to hold your hand
I hate knowing that if I hugged you, you would push me away
And I absolutely despise the fact that you barely even notice me
Especially when I know every move that you make
Is it that hard?
That hard just to talk to me?
It really pains me to see you walk away when I'm speaking to you
I know I am not as pretty
Or as exciting as *her
But I was really hoping tha
Everything I Have Done
Everything I Have Done~
I had a terrible past
Everyday I would wake up
Wondering what the lastest drama on me was
I would always try to hide
You know, fade in the background?
Well that seemed nearly impossible
Every step i took
Someone was there ridiculing me
Only one person knows how ashamed I am of everything I have done
I can trust her with my life
I can trust her with my mistakes
I can trust her with my past
But mostly, I can trust knowing that she will never tell him the things I told her
She knows he made me cry
She knows he made me scream in pain
Because she witnessed all of that
She knows everything
I loved him so much
I would have done absolutely anything just to get him to notice me
But the problem was
I did exactley that
Anything and everything
If I had know before what kind of damage he would have caused me
I would not have even bothered to look twice at him
But that's where I'm lying
Of course I would have wasted my time on him
And of course I still would have l
The life you lead is unspoken
Write the words for the pages unwritten
You are the only one that can control what your future holds
Make the one who broke your heart beg to have you to come back
Don't hold a grudge
But let them know that their chances are fat
If your life was taken in snapshots
What would it look like?
Would you be proud of your past?
Or would you wish that you had taken your life to a whole new height?
Were you fearless?
Did you love even though you knew he would never be yours,
Or did you let the other monster have him,
While you got whatever was left
Make your presence memorable
And let your personality shine out luminously
Don't let others tell you what to do
And keep your promises as if you were sworn to secrecy
Raise your head high and keep it there proudly
Don't look down on others
Because when they are alone
They just might cry about it quietly
Who cares about your weight?
If someone judges you on that
Then they aren't worth your time anyway
So Did You
So Did You~
· "I'm sorry."
· That phrase has been abused and tossed around way too many times
· Not everybody realizes how valuable its meaning is
· Although it's only two words
· The story behind it is much greater than its size
· Some people just spit it out like its nothing
· But if you use it wrong
· It could take the victim months of healing
· I know you had no intention of hurting me
· You barely noticed we were drifting further apart
· And that left me drowning in the sea
· At times I forgot how to swim
· And it felt like the world stopped turning
· I have to learn how to get along without you
· And I have to find a way to stop hurting
· Every time I see you
· It brings back a flood of emotions
· I don't know whether to laugh or cry
· Or to go lie down and let time pass me by
· I can't count how many times I have wanted to run away and hide
· It's hard to find someone who wil
Middle Of Nowhere
Middle Of Nowhere~
· "Take my hand and close your eyes."
· I asked him where we were going
· But he said it was a surprise
· I could smell the salt of the ocean in the distance
· And ran my hand against a cherry wood tree
· I could feel the cool wind of the night
· And hear the gentle waves of the sea
· I tried to picture where we could be
· But nothing seemed familiar
· I had no idea where we were
· He held my hand to guide me safely
· Whispering in my ears
· Giving me directions and saying he loved me
· I felt myself blush
· And I giggled way too loudly
· Normally, that laugh would have been to quiet,
· But, wherever we were,
· The slightest whisper broke the silence
· He held me by the waist
· And brushed back my hair
· Kissed me gently
· And positioned me on a chair
· "Don't peek." He commanded me
· As impatient as I was
· I managed not to see
· I felt s
A letter...Dear XxWolfRocksxX,
I believed that I should make this, out of respect for you and your choice. Now I know that now with you gone that you won't see this, yet it's like talking to a ghost...they are there, yet not.
So, you never really did talk to me, but you did welcome me to DA when I was just starting. You were so sweet and you seemed to welcome me with open arms....I remember when we RPed as Tyler and Mitch, how you took the lead when I didn't know what I was doing.
I do say, I respect your choice to leave. Yet I feel as if I'll always be in wonder as to why? So many questions run through your head when you seem so lost....what if someone had told you not to leave? What if someone had stopped you and figured out why you couldn't do it anymore? How will we ever know the answers. I'm betting we will never know....but why should we know anyways? It's the questions that keep the world spinning don't they?
I ask all the questions yet I know y
Young man of dark skin
and brown eyes with love deep within,
marches on through the storm
to keep the innocent out of harm.
Gun slung over shoulder and knife in hand,
he defends to weak and helps them stand.
But one soldier boy cannot stand on his own
and will need a friend so he's not alone.
A young girl, of scarlet hair
has promised to stay close even when life isn't fair.
Never to leave nor to hide
for in her love the soldier boy can abide.
She'll hold his hand and kiss his cheek
to give him strength when he feels weak.
She'll carry him up hill and mountain top
and in front of fear she will not stop.
She will stand by his side now and forever.
You don't abandon the ones you love...never.
UsedI can never be free
Because the truth is you fucking used me
I thought you were the perfect love song
But I was dead wrong
I'm a mess
And that's all I'll ever be
I don't fucking sleep because of you
Because even in my dreams, destruction is what you do
I rather spend days awake
Then sleep and repeatedly break.
Tell me how you fucking sleep knowing you stole my heart
And tore it apart
I was tempted by your words
The sickest lies I've ever heard
Now I know
What type of person you are
You're a user
You manipulated me
I'm fucking broken don't you see?
And that's all I'll ever be
Minecraft in our heartsAdmit it. The first time you ever spawned, you didn't know what you were doing at ALL. You struggled to survive the harsh and hostile mobs. You got lost. You were confused. You were scared. You were lonely. But over time you learned from your struggle, your battles, and your loneliness. But you still never understood what your purpose in this world was. The truth is you THINK you know your purpose but you don't. You might think your purpose is to survive and defeat the Enderdragon but it's not; or to destroy the wither and keep the nether star to be honored for all time but it's not. You problably think I'm crazy, but I'm not. I speak the truth. To know what you're true purpose in this world is to find out for yourself. For I know what that is.
the death of a madmanI cringe when people say
"Laid to waste"
Whatever I got
Was only a taste
Much more vivid
Than any dream
Too good though it seemed
Back into earth
Had I earned godship?
Was this my rebirth?
My soul left my body
And spread far and wide
And my spirit, yes
Tears of joy it did cry
Seemed not to matter
It was suicide
In the blink of an eye
And the whole world's feelings
All at once when I died
Granted in death
They were stripped
I was thrown
Back into flesh
What the Black Keys Sound LikeI love the sound of a heartbroken piano
All the pains and the whines
Touched so gently
Then left behind
Oh, how I love the sound of a beaten piano
The cracked and missing keys
Always muttering "please..?"
My favorite sound is of a scarred piano
The last few keys it had
Were low, last breaths of a
Brokenhearted pianist who is not mad....
One More DayRoses are red
Violets are blue
I’d do anything
To be with you
I know you don’t love me
I’m sure it was fake
But I hope you’ll be mine again
I only have myself to blame
For thinking we could ever be more than friends
How could it be more than that?
All I can ask of you is to please
At least just for one more day
I can’t bear life without you
If you go
I’ll have to take myself away
So darling please stay here with me
At least one more day
My smypathy to my ''Child''It was a long, far off journey, wasn't it? Until that moment, we met
Like fragmented molecular symbols I am if you're not with me...
I'd rather throw my defiled body from the rotten ark,...
...drowning in beautiful lies
I want to meet you, but I can't meet you. Where are you?
I don't understand; I don't want to hear it. But, it's the truth
The requiem of flightless birds once again echoes...
...in the heart of Shangri-La
Because of the sleepless crescent moon, the empty droplets can never return
Even something beautiful and pure laughed at that season,...
...gazing at it as it were just a fabrication
Don't disappear, don't forget that wavering mirage
I want to cry, but I can't cry even as I call your name...
If my wishes and warmth scatter away in the wind,....
....then at least, take my song of love to you now
I want to meet you, I want to meet you even if just in a dream
Embrace me, whisper to me, ah, with that voice
Crossing over the flightless miserable birds,...
...I flap my wings
· He saw me cry on the last day
· I bet he thought it was because everyone was going away
· But secretly inside myself I was yelling,
· "Don't do this to me!"
· "Don't leave."
· Every time I see him
· It's like the gigantic hole in my chest disappears
· But the second he turns around
· I wish he was now near
· The hole somehow finds its way back
· Through all of the tears
· There's a lump in my throat
· That I just can't seem to swallow
· I try to scream
· But my voice just sounds hollow
· It feels like there is acid
· All throughout my body
· Every payer I prayed was for you
· Every start I wished upon was about you
· And every tear I shed was because of you
· You were never forgotten
· Oh honey, you were never ONCE forgotten
Poetic PsychosisIn thirty seconds, the next shell would fall. Every night was the same, but every night Lorenzo experienced it as if it were the first time. His throat felt swollen; breathing was hard. He glanced around at the others; young men like him who had been shipped out in the name of honour and freedom. There was no honour in this, no freedom. Only death behind your eyelids, and a fear so gutting, that it carved out your innards and left you a hollow husk. Lorenzo tried to breathe, tried to assure himself that he was still whole, still made of flesh. They had lied when they told him he was ready.
Matteo ran towards him, arms out, rifle swinging uselessly at his side. He shouted for him to run, but Lorenzo remained motionless, unable to move as his friend’s warning was lost in the constant blare of gunfire. None of them were ready.
“The cycle is repeating. It is not safe.” The voice was soft and weak, yet it carried over the gunfire and battle cries without impediment.
longdead leafa longdead leaf
burnt brown in the depth of green
cups a handful of fresh water
a leaf left behind
holds something of worth
forgoing death with its dead body
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